my words

bah~

2006-09-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

i just dont like this address le..
haha
http://zzhheennhhuuii-lifestory.blogspot.com/

new address...

no time!

2006-09-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

No time!
no time!
no time!
i realise there is no time!
i just realised the deadline of the projects are VERY near..
and exams are coming in a months time or so!!!
wAh!!!!!
why didnt i realise tat!!!!!!!
times flew real fast!!!!!
btw like my new blogskin?
haha..
Nope i didnt make tat..
i just kinda like it..
haha

oPpS

2006-09-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

oPps!
it has been a long time since i have make an entry..
haha..
modules this sem is kinda sucky!
this particular psych module..
is boring!!! right from the lecturer to the textbook!!
thank goodness my tutor is still ok..lame...but still ok..
it is sem break now..
and i need to catch up on a lot of things..
from stats to marcoecons to cognitive psych to abnormal psych..
the only things that i think i am in control is japanese..
there will be lotsa quizzes coming up after the sem break!!!
cognitive, abnormal, communication..
then there are projects to do...
commnication and marcoecon...
then there is assignment to finish..
stats..
wAh!!!!!!!
panic panic panic!!!
haha..
i am like slacking.. while i am panicking...
so lazy right..
haha

hai

2006-09-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

hai~
been a long time since i wrote down an entry..
sch sux..
this is the first sem tat i feel tat sch sux..
everything is so difficult!!!!!
*he left on Wed...
will be back in two weeks time..
sigh..
missing *him now...
and sch sux!

new academic year

2006-08-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

The new academic year has arrived...
first week is kinda ok..
the " sch has reopened!!!!" feeling has yet to kick..
guess it is because the full timetable has not started...
i may tell u how i feel next week..
haha
having a new batch in Uni is not like having a new batch
in pri, sec sch or JC...
it does not matter..
u wont feel the different..
u wont even have contact with the juniors like u do before..
the only change that u will feel is when there is changes within ur cohort..
how isolated we are from other cohorts once we are in Uni..
haha..
****************************************************************
31 aug is coming..
sian sian sian..
sad sad sad....

so call random tots....

2006-07-31T22:36:00.000+08:00

so call random tots are in mind..
if u are ashame of a person(lets name xXx) till u are not willing
to show xXx to your parents now...
are u willing to show xXx in the future?
i dont know leh..
most prob the person will not change..
and then it will mean you will nv be ready to show xXx to your parents..
erm so it will means tat xXx is not for u..i guess...
so yea~
my opinion is..
dont waste time k..
find someone who u are able to show to your parents..
easier for u...
easier for the other person...
but then..
if u are like.. young.. i.e not 25 years old and above like tat..
i guess u dont have to think much abt it..
u are still young...
u may not be with that person forever..
things may change in the future ba..
but if u are thinking tat u want to be with tat person forever..
then u better think hard..
wat do tat person think abt u..
he may just be ashame of u...
and u are wasting ur time..
coz u kinda like have no future with him..
yeah...
just a random tot...

2006-07-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

sch is gonna start sooN!
sigh..
i so dont want sch to start..
and sigh..
the club thingy has come to a halt again....
will the prof let us have a individual club?
i sure hope he does..
haa

Oh ya.......

http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/jenncyy/my_photos

think is the korean japanese fashion album...
my cousin is sell clothes..heehee..
anyone interested in the dress just tell me k...
then i will tell my cousin...

The one about programmers

2006-07-23T22:02:00.000+08:00

Feel like writing a post abt programmers..
not because i was a programmer hence i want to say nice things or wat...
it is because i was a programmer and i know wat it is like....
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Programmers of any events are very important...
they are the one who come out of games, modify them and administer them....
without them, there is no activities for your event..
and the event becomes useless...
yes u need main committee to organise, collect money, have logistic to make sure
all things are there and gls to motivate the campers...
but seriously, programmers are actually the least appreciated by many pple..
when they make mistakes in points, rules and wat have u,
they will be face with bad attitudes...
it is not easy to do those things ok....
there are things that the programmers cannot control..
seriously, u have to be a programmer to know how tiring it is...
they dont slack ard...
seriously they dont....
(oh ya, the next least appreciated pple are the logistics..three cheers for them!)
so pple, while u are thinking how lovely and stressful ur GLs are,
maybe u shld think abt other pple in the camp,
like the programmers and the logisitics..
and when u see them, give them a pat on the back,
appreciate them....
let them know wat they have done are worth it...
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seriously, after this camp... i dont think i will be joining anymore camp
as programmer anymore... especially in a camp where there is no appreciation...

back from camp

2006-07-22T14:39:00.000+08:00

I am back from camp!!!!
anyone miss me?
i am sick!!!!
someone pass it to me when i was in camp....
angry abt that...
i was only tired..
now i am sick and tired...
being a programmmer is not easy..
trust me..
u dont seem to have enough rest....
sitting down waiting for pple to our station does not mean we are resting k..
and u meet niao pple..
who care so much abt marks and points..
and pple who are not cooperative..
wat will make things worst?
pple who do not truly appreciate wat we have done..
and just leave us alone after we have done our job....
baa...
though we pay less for the camp.. we also pay de ma..
rather be a gl...
at least got pple appreciate gl....

argh~

2006-07-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

I have never felt so betrayed before..
i have never felt so not respected before..
all i can say is I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes! I HATE U!

Reader's Digest article abt being polite...

2006-07-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

Read the article on Reader Digest abt how polite we are in the whole..
they have conducted an experiment so as to find out how polite pple are...
not a strict scientific study..
out came the results..
People in New york are ranked number one..
and blah blah blah..
well the point of putting this here is tat..
i just cant help thinking how flawed this experiment is..
sample size is too small...
and i dont really like the way the article present its result..
whereby it make it sound like all the people in that particular country are
polite or impolite..
which is not correct..
or maybe they just intend to let pple have this misconception....
with a population of millions.. how can 60 pple represent the whole population..
there are sure good and bad and ugly in all the countries..
the only difference is the number..
hence i dont like the way they qoute pple..
where the good are always from country x, bad always from country y,
and ugly from country z.
Correct me if my interpretation is wrong..
but hey..
if i can interpret it tat way..
many other pple can do so to..
stereotyping can harm the people of tat particular country quite badly..
lets not say those who are labelled as impolite..
where the downside of this label, i presumed, is known to everyone..
so u think those who are labelled as impolite has no downside?
think again...
this experiment must be conducted again..
to see whether people of that certain country are really polite or impolite...
bottom line is.. DONT BELIEVE EVERYTHING U READ.....
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If i were younger.. i would take in watever it is..
but after knowing some basics abt conducting studies..
looking at certain studies down by those newspaper, magazines and wat have u...
u will start commenting abt it..
and finding flaws in it..
hey.. even real scientific studies have flaws....

The one abt superman returns...

2006-07-11T11:05:00.000+08:00

I dont really remember whether I have talked abt Superman return..
so here goes..
haha..
this show is weird..
dont really like it coz i was expecting more action...
(but i was told superman not much action..is it true?)
the whole show spend an hour plus talking abt superman and Lois lane...
i was sitting there thinking.. WHERE IS THE ACTION?
though i dont really like action movie..
i went in expecting an action movie..
and all i got is something like a love story.....
no action coz superman sure wins?
coz he is not human.. no point fighting?
then wat is with the comics..
why do the guys like the comics?
it cant be because of the love stories right?
where is the action?

choices

2006-07-10T16:14:00.000+08:00

Why are most good chefs male?
my answer to this question is that most men have the choice of whether to cook or not..
so those who cooked chose to cook..
which means tat they are interested in..
being interested in it will also mean tat u will tend to do well...
make sense?
i mean.. if u are interested in it.. u will want to do well right?
and u will work harder and come up with more nice things...
with choice.. u are able to do well in the things u like..
u will appreciate it more..
and complain less..
do i make sense?
haha..

ARGH~ the thing abt waiting

2006-07-05T14:21:00.000+08:00

One thing i cannot stand abt my sch is tat the results take ages to come out...
wait and wait and wait and wait..
i know i know...
the profs have lotsa of scripts to mark and etc etc..
I know i sound impatient..
but i just dont like things to drag..
tat goes for meeting..
and did i complain about the meeting for FOC..
everyone was like SUPER late..
wasted 1 hr of my time..
sian..
i dont like pple to waste my time..
irritating...
these pple are so inconsiderate..
how can u make pple wait for u..
and guess wat..
i heard this is common for Uni group meetings.. in NTU tat is..
wat as u grow older ur sense of time deteriorate???
cannot stand them...
honestly....
where is ur respect for the organisers?
i can help but tell those who loves to be late for no reason tat they suck
and honestly i feel like scolding them losers!
why shld pple wait for u..
maybe u shld try to put ur shoes in theirs..
would u like to wait????
if everyone is late..
wat is the meeting time for???
losers....

Boring days~

2006-07-04T10:36:00.000+08:00

I am bored!!!!
haha.. seriously...
but i enjoy being bored and doing nothing..much..
how often can u do tat especially when sch start...
Uni holi is the best i guess..
in the sense there is no homework in which u fear u have not done..
every sem is a brand new start...
haha
wat have done for the past week...
let me see...
Iwent out to Sentosa with my ex helper on Tues
she is such a successful woman now..
i am not sure whether i have typed this..
but then all i know that..
she is telling me tat..
if u think u are at the top of the world..
u will be..
of course u will need hard work
I believe she had worked very hard to be where she is now..
she is like a role model so to say..
so nowadays when i feel that i cannot make it for things..
i will just remember her words...
the impact she made on me...
haha..
she have taken care of me when i was 8 months old and left for Canada
when i was around 4..
dont really like to use the word "maid" now..
haha..
And on Sat, celebrated Yan Xia's Bdae..
hope that she is happy..
Happy belated Bdae girl!!! ( coz i post it only now)
haha
boring days..
i like..
but there are somethings i need to do though..
haa

movies!~

2006-06-23T12:11:00.000+08:00

i have watched a total of two movies for the week...
one is Garfield 2 and the other Just my Luck..
both are very nice shows..
to me..
the word that i ca describe would be funny...
Just My Luck.. is too fiction... at least tat is wat i think..
will there be pple out there who is sooooo unlucky..
and will there be pple out there who is soooooooo lucky?
haha
average luck will be nice..
just average..
it cant be too extreme...
not really good for us..
i am talking nonsense...
haha..
i shall stop talking..

What is the life ahead of me?

2006-06-18T10:27:00.000+08:00

a question suddenly came up...
What is the life ahead of me?
i am studying real hard now..
so that i can get my first class honours...
so that i can go to grad sch to get a master in psychology..
this is the ideal picture..
but..
wat if i am unable to attain this ideal picture?
wat will happen to me?
what will i be doing?
what job can i get?
i guess i do fear of having the non-ideal picture..
have i done anything as a back-up plan?
i have taken up the therapist job..
so as to gain experience..
maybe one day when i cant get into grad sch..
i will be a therapist..
BUT.. wat if i fail as a therapist..sigh...
what else have i done?
actually...
nothing..
oh man...
sigh..
wat am i going to do??
shld i stop being so negative and concentrate on studying?
this sem's result allow me to attain a GPA of 4.5..
which is good...
but this is only year 1..
i fear for the rest of my sch years..
will i be able to atttain the same results..
if not..
can i not fall so badly till i cannot get my goal..
shld i even get such results now..
which may become a factor that will cause me to be depress in the future..
as second year is coming..
i fear. .
i fear with wat come ahead of me...
all i can do is pray hard and study hard...
but i tend to procastinate..
i have told myself..
since i was in secondary 4 to not porcastinate..
to not study at the last min..
but i have failed doing so...
the temptation to not do anything is so great..
what am i suppose to do?
i can say i do not to study last min like last sem for the rest of the sch years..
but i know..
i can only say.. can i do it?
i wonder..
whatever i have attain now..
i really attribute it to luck...
a lot of luck.. and some degree of hard work...
it i put in more degree of hard work.. can i do even better...
or when i put in more degree of hard work...will my luck drop...
wow..
isnt the unknown future scary....

i cannot stand

2006-06-12T15:05:00.000+08:00

I cannot stand people who think they know me very well..
i cannot stand people who make me feels that watever i say, think or feel
is shallow compared to them..
i cannot stand people who think that they are very wei da..
i cannot stand people who are racist, sexist and "watever"-ist...
get a life cannot a not..
i do not care how great u are..
as long as u piss me off..
u are already evil..
coz if u are nice, why are u pissing people off??????
.....
just letting some steam out..
feeling piss abt things..
a lot of things.....

Sis's Hse warming

2006-06-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

I went for my Sis hse warming today...
she ordered food for 40 people...
and in the end less than that came..
and we have to bring some food back..
not that she didnt estimate well..
some people just didnt tell them that they are not coming...
she nearly fainted..
was not so bad in the end..
she just have to call some people to come over..
wat suppose to be a family gathering became strangers coming in..
and friends coming in..
just to help her finish the food..
it seems nice to have ur own hse after u get married..
would u like to have ur own hse after u get married?
would u mind staying with ur partner's or ur own parents' hse..
i would like to get my own place after seeing my sis hse..
u can do anything u want with ur hse..
decorate it..
and let ur family and friends see ur master piece..
most imptly..
it is a brand new start for u and ur partner...
a place wheereby both of u choose and decide to be ur home..
decorate it together...
having new things all ard....
haa..
but tat is wat i want.. wat lies in the future i do not know..
i may or may not have my own hse when i get married..
haa

Photos from my My sis and Andy's ROM

2006-06-10T21:34:00.000+08:00

haha.. guess this are enough.. my sis ROM photos....
long ago..
but i only have it now..
and i am happy for her so i have to let u all see..
hee

the one about results~~~

2006-06-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

I am please with my results..
very in fact..
i tot i would not be able to make...
well..
i wont be so lucky everytime..
so i better study very hard next sem onwards...
things will get harder..
ok!!!
buck up!!!
buck uP!!!!
up next is Astro exams..
i hope i can do well....
*pls*

2/3 of the results

2006-06-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

2/3 of the results are out!!!!!!!
i am happy for now...
praying hard that it will still be good!!!!!!
*pray*

opps

2006-05-31T16:40:00.000+08:00

Oh No...
I do not know whether I have done the right thing..
I do not know how to reject the parents..
how do i tell them that "I cannot take your child because I am having any child now..
and that since I am still studying, I am quite pack" in a nice way..
and does not show that they seems to be cheated by the school and tat i reject the, badly..
i was advised to take at most two children..
but then due to the intensive sessions.. one child is enough..
but i do not know what to do..
do i really keep rejecting them?
but accepting them will cause me to be too pack..
hmmz..
how?
a parent just called and she make it sound like as though i am an undergraduate, I cannot commit.. no no it is not because i am an undergraduate that is why i cannot commit..is because i have a child who wants a lot of session.. hmmz.. or is it because i am an undergraduate that is why i cannot have too many sessions..
Hai~~
I am really sorry that I have to reject you..
please do not blame me..

last weekend

2006-05-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

Watched Over The Hedge on Sat...
funny show..
very cute too!!
hee..
"Wonderful Life" is a Korean show.
and it is, in my opinion, very nice!!
how an immature guy have to marry a girl at ard 21 because of the
daughter they had after a one night stand in Singapore...
the girl playing the role as the daughter is soooo CUTE!!!!!!!!!
really~~
Big eyes.. white skin.. cute voice.. very pretty..
the whole show is kinda sad and sweet..
there are cute pple in the show.. and as usual..bad people who became nice..
i kinda realise all shows tat is not based on books or comic will have
some hidden theme...
tat is my opinion of course..
for example "over the hedge".. since it is for children.. it will be the important
of having a family.. and that you cannot make use of people.. and things like tat..
education..
and "wonderful Life" is to have love for the people ard u.. and of course..
not to make mistake.. and rumours suck..
waha.
i will start therapy session this Friday..
so exciting..
dont know whether i will be able to make it..
haha..
will i have to and i will...

i dont know

2006-05-26T09:37:00.000+08:00

I am always stuck in this..
every sem..
when there is a need to SU..
i shld stop taking subject which i need to SU!!!!!
i do not know whether i shld SU astro..
yesterday's lecture scared me..
i dont know whether i can go through exam a not..
Baoying say it is only one subject in the holiday..
so just study harder..
true.. there is time for me to study harder..
but wat if harder does not help me?
wat if harder just does not work?
sigh~~
did i put my expection for a "first class honours" too high?
i think i did.. coz i am not studying hard enough...
so shld i SU?
Pei Shan said the same thing too..
that we have more time to study then during the sch days..
hmz..
class schedule are out..
i seriously do not know wat to take..
nothing really interest me much..
and i fear tat i am unable to take certain subject..
actually the time slot..
oh well..
we shall see..
haha
the one thing now is SHLD I SU?????????

Da Vinci Code

2006-05-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

Watch Da Vinci Code with Baoying, Hui Chen and Kenneth yesterday..
i kinda like the show..
at it is real long..
seems to be worth the money..
haha..
it really gets you to think of the "WAT IF?" questions..
if they are true..
will it really devastate mankind?
because "what they have known from the past are wrong"?
i honestly dont know..
all i know is i like the show..
though it is a little confusing..
think there is a need to watch it the second time to enjoy it..
haha
i like the show.. no matter wat the comments abt it is..
haha

dont pester me..

2006-05-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

Just hope that mummy will stop pestering me..
I do not and will not have the answer that she want..
hai~
if only there is a way to stop her from asking me..
i always do not know wat to do when she ask..
all i can do is to try to change topic..
cant she see i am uncomfortable?
i cannot do anything if he does not bring me back to his parents right..
since you say we are only friends..
then why do i need to be seen by his family..
does not matter wat...
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saturday outing....

2006-05-21T12:08:00.000+08:00

Haven been to town for a long time..
as usual..
it is crowded..
haha..
my legs are aching from all those walk i had..
had tea with WW..
enjoy the talk we had..
i cannot believe there are guys who like to shop..
haha..
i think he cannot believe there are girls who do not like to shop..
haha..
well tat is what i think..correct me if i am wrong ya?
haha..
glad that we went out together..
glad that we remain in contact.. (^^)
after meeting WW, had dinner with GH.
it was the first time i ever tried Carl's Jr,
though the price is kinda high as compared to the other fast food resturant..
it kinda worth ur money..
coz the burger is BIG!
haha..
and the burger is tasty..
the mushroom burger is tasty..
I would want to go there again to try other burgers...
but not at dinner time during the weekends..
coz it is PACKED...
well..
to wrap up my saturday.. i had fun~~~~
hee

back from training

2006-05-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

back from my training to be a therapist it..
i love it..
i kinda always feel reluctatnt to go there..
but once i am there i am glad i went...
it is fun seeing those children..
they are extremely cute!!!!
i cant wait to take a child under my care..
i hope that i can do a good job..
it is really fun doing it..
and you feel that you have achieve something great..
this is one of the few things that makes me happy..
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i am lost

2006-05-19T09:09:00.000+08:00

i do not know how to feel..
i do not know wat think..
whatever i am doing seems to be a mistake..
i never want to play victim..
NEVER! whether u believe it a not..
but whatever i say, do or think..
i am judged as playing victim..
so much so i dont know how i shld feel..
i shld i think..
have u ever been so upset..
and u start to think abt things..
then suddenly the voice of someone come to ur head..
saying that whatever u do is not right..
then suddenly u feel so lost..
u do not know wat to do..
u do not feel urself..
even typing this make u ponder whether u are evil or not?
i never feel so lost..
and i know there is no light at this end of the tunnel...

i am bored!

2006-05-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

I am extremely bored..
i know that i have to study for next week quiz..
but my mind do not allow me to do so..
and my dear guy is down with chicken pox..
but i cannot go down to visit him..
coz i have not contracted chicken pox and i really dont feel like..
at least for now..
with the quiz coming in..
i feel so selfish and bad..
actually i am feeling weird now..
a lot of mix feelings..
one moment i am feeling ok..
the next i am feeling depress..
i think i am staying at home for too long..
haha

ponder...

2006-05-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

生病的人就有资格伤害他身边的人吗？
我也不知道。。。
生病的人就能为所欲为吗？
想要发脾气就发脾气。。。
想骂人就骂人。。。
想要做什么就做什么。。
那生病的人身旁的人该这么半年呢？
只能忍受吧。。。
只能说因为生病所以脾气会比较坏。。。。
只能苦口婆心的劝他们应该做什么。。
只能把所有的不开心放到一边去。。。。
唉~

monday~

2006-05-15T09:57:00.000+08:00

monday~
rest day~
haha
have moved out of hostel..
will miss the people i got to know from hall..
but i wont miss hall..
coz have tried not to get too attached to it..
too attached to it, u will regret not staying further...
haha
i am glad to be home~~~~~~~~~
things i need to do:
1) settle my Psych club.have been slacking too long
2) settle my kid for therapy
3) study for astro
4) rest and go out with him* ( 3 more months before he is leaving...)
wat else shld i do?
hmmz

my idea of a boyfriend.

2006-05-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

my idea of a boyfriend is someone
*who will always be there to give me support...
*who know who i am
*who accept who i am
*who is able to come up with sweet and romantic gestures. it dont have to be all the time.. just some times.. that can make me smile..
*who will spend time to talk to me..not quarrel with me
*who will tell me what i have done wrong..but not scold me..
*who will comfort me when i am down.
*who will remember dates and treat them as special as i have treated them.
*who will write me small notes so that i can read when he is not ard..
that is my idea of a boyfriend..
am i too demanding?

sigh..when technology fails

2006-05-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

when technology fails on you..
and you have a quarrel...
you are in deep trouble...
That is something i believe..
coz tat person will think that you are not communicating with him on purpose...
but..
the actual fact that is his stupid phone is STUPID.
sigh
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there is tons of things i felt like writing..
but the problem is the fear of people getting mad...
kinda feel threatened nowadays..
coz everyone ard me seems to have a different view from me..
recently everyone seems to complain about certain pple not being up to their standards..
you can just hear pple complaining about them...
for watever thing they can find fault..
feel tat it is irritating..
how can you judge pple like that when you do not know them well...
how can you only look at things that they have not done well..
and talk about them on things which have no proves..
sigh..
and because everyone else thinks so..
you think tat you are right..
cannot stand this kind of pple..
who complains whatever they are in...
always comparing with other people from elsewhere..
be it whether you are in a sch..
some even compare their countries..
they always choose the problems of their own countries,schools and compare with the plus points of others..
honestly..
is it because of the lack of choice in whatever you are in hence you are complaining and comparing..
irritating

YAY!

2006-05-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

yay!! exams over!!!!
hee..
first thing that i did was to have lunch with Pey lun..
haha...
was her bdae today(4th may)..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
was quite enjoyable.. been a long time since i've seen her..
and she is still the same old her..
waha
only tat her thinking process failing.. memory failing..
she is still the same old her..
hee..
watch mission impossible 3 today..
hmmz...
quite a nice show..
but i am not really a fan when it comes to action movies..
so ya..
quite a nice show..
aha..
there are lotsa of things to do..
and i do not know where to start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh well...
there is still intersem...astronomy here u come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hee

exams period

2006-04-27T10:59:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for exams to end..
i want it to end now..
NOW NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sadly.. i have to wait till next thurs..
whY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
hai~
i am sad..
disappointed..
blah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

photos from my ex-new cam...if u know wat i mean..haha

2006-03-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

hmz...
why dont i see photos..
do u all see photos?

miss me?

2006-03-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmz.. it has been 20 days since i updated myself..
anyone miss me?
have been very busy..
projects...
projects..
and more projects..
exams starts on 12 April...
and once again..
i have YET to study..
haha..
trying to start..
will do it by next week..
I can finally, offically say that I have gotten myself a digi cam..
after a long debate of whether i shld get one(with myself)..
and the stupid bumps that i encountered..
because of the camera being faulty..
and with BEST DENKI's poor services.....
two weeks is like hell..
it is as though it is my fault tat the camera is faulty..
is BEST DENKI blaming on my luck..
out of all the staff i encountered..
only two are worth receiving my compliments..
Jeffery from Nee ann city branch and Phillip from J8 branch..
can u imagine being put on hold on the phone for more than 5 mins before i can speak to someone????
can u imagine being put on hold.. listening to their stupid music... and then was cut off by them...
can u imagine listening to the phrase " the goods will arrive next week" for two weeks i called them?
can u imagine getting to listen to " please understand us" for more than 5 times in a phone conversation..
when they dont even understand wat I am going through...i.e because of this i couldnt capture memories of my sis's ROM...
i was so pissed that i was beginning to be the unreasonable customer..
sigh...
the worst statement i heard from him " the problem is that u bought it from the IT fair"
so is my fault tat the camera is faulty???????
he obviously didnt think before he speaks...
being not happy with tat staff..
who said he had smthing to give me..
who in the end did not.. i guess tat something is "a pack of lies"
haha..but ya.. didnt bother to remind him..
dont need...just in case is something faulty again..
haha
oh ya..
then i met this irritating mrt staff from bishan station..
tapped my card..
couldnt get in..
went to the counter...
he help me settled..
tapped my card again..
saw the card value...which is quite unusual becoz was used to seeing the number of ride left...
go ask why..
AND HE ATTITUDE ME!!!!!!!!!!
tat chinese staff that is on duty on 25 march 2006 at ard 3.30pm...
i was just asking u a qn..
why attitude me..
was already upset with best denki..
i actually told him..
"i was just asking.. u dont have to give me such attitude"
first time to strangers..
and he was like..
"no... yada yada yada" (have forgotten wat he had said)
and the rest of the story..
lazy to type...
haha
watched Nanny Mcphee today!!!!
very nice..
cute...
funny..
i like..
hee..
if only i have magic....
then i can make all those irritating pple who make me look like a bad consumer disappear...

results week

2006-03-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

last week..
my birthday week..
my result week...
I had GP exams and JLPT 4 last year..
and here are the results..
GP-->B4
JLPT--> 387/400
haha...
yea~~
i am happy!!!!
hee...
for both of them..
especially for GP..
the one tat i have nightmares for..
the one which i worry for..
for JLPT..my only worry is tat i didnt shade my index correctly..
coz JLPT 4 is really easy..
but i will not say for the other levels.. =P
had my social test and got back my result..
is 36/50 good?
hmz...
maybe.. if u dont have to compare with the others who got more than tat..
coz ur overall grades depends on the rest of the pple..
sigh....
oh well..
work hard then..

Happy Birthday to mE~

2006-02-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

hee..
I will like to thank everyone that wished me! hee
i will like to thank 1503 girls for the prez..
Hong ling and Hui zhuang for coordinating outing..
the guys who came..
Da Ge, er ge, wei feng and kai wei for prezz..
ziwei, hong ling, bao ying, beatrice( who decide to watch tv), shu qin and Jonathan for the bdae surprise and prezz...
i kinda outwitt u all right.. hee..
and and Dear for the prez and bdae outing..
hee..
i really had fun this year..
thank you thank you..
heeee

happy birthday to u!!

2006-02-26T13:45:00.000+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday Gan Hong!!!
hope that you have a wonderful birthday today!!
hope that you will stay happy forever k!
and that all your dreams come true!!!
*hugs*

attention seeker

2006-02-21T12:02:00.000+08:00

is a person who needs a lot of attention an attention seeker?
is it the person's fault that she needs a lot of attention?
i guess a person, who is attention seeking, is feeling insecure with the relationships she is having with everyone ard her..
afraid that everyone ard her will suddenly leave.
leaving her all alone..
there are certain pple in which she hope they could give her as many attention as possible..
trying all means and ways to feel that they care..
so much so that they feel that she is a weirdo and she is too much to handle..
this is especially so when they are very busy with their work..
but in her point of view..
they just hate to be with her..
they just cant stand her..
nobody wants her.. nobody cares for her..
but she is so wrong..
even if the whole world detest her..
the people that she can find that will be there for her would be her family..
most importantly her mother..
if only she is willing to tell her mother how she is feeling at that moment..
but she never tell her mother much about her feelings...
in fact..
most of the time she never tell anyone much about her feelings..
she is just afraid..
afraid that if she reveals too much of her feelings to anyone..
she will grow dependant on them..
and would want them to be there for her whenever she needs a listening ear..
why the fear?
because she has experienced the feeling of growing too dependant on someone..
and got the feelings that the person dislike her..
and hence at times try ways for the person to not "dislike" her...
making things worst..
she is also afraid that people out there who know too much of her..
her whiny personality, her sucky watever..
tat they will start to leave her, hate her..
not care about her..
why the fear?
she is insecure of her relationships with those pple..
till now..
she is unable to find anyone who can give her the attention she needs..
she feels lost..useless... unwanted...

i do not like HW 101

2006-02-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

i do not like HW101..
i never like this kinda of subjects..
first it was English in Secondary school..
then it was General Paper in Junior College...
now it is HW101 in University...
sometimes i wonder...
CAN U JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!
please stop ur way of trying to lower my self-esteem regarding writing..
I am bad..
i know..
just leave me alone!!
I am feeling sad now because I had a C+ for the first assignment...
i began to wonder.. am i really hopeless in such subjects..
what happen?
the next assignment would be write down one routine that find meaningless...
i dont really know wat i want to write..
can i say tat having to attend subjects that requires pure english writing is meaningless..
can i say that the way the courses are structured actually kills my interest in writing..
can i say that I am tired of crying because of the grades that i get for these subjects...
can i say that it is frustrating to not get any results when i work hard in the subjects
can i say that i do not learn anything except for the fact that i am terrible in it..
can i say that they are the only subjects that made have sleepless nights the moment i think about the results i will get...
I dont hate writing.. I just hate the courses.. I want to learn to write in a stress free manner where grades what I write is not important..
the only importance is whether I have improved...
i want to write because I want to write and not because I have to write.

Happy V day!

2006-02-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

Happy V day to one and alL!!
hope u all had a wonderful day today with ur love ones, families and even friends!!
haha..
to u!
thank u* for the present and the cake!
to ziwei and jonathan: thank you for the flower!

5 feb

2006-02-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

first and foremost~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!!!
25 yrs old le wor..
lao le wor~~
haha
but getting married so is okie~
haha
went to vist Mr Tan's hse yesterday...
hmm
his house is huge...
his dogs are scary...
his cat...nothing to say..
haha
till now i still dont feel comfortable seeing him in the eye..
i still feel the sense of guilt..
the sense of guilt tat i failed his subject..
will never know when i can walk out of it..
hope i can pass this time..
and tell him that i am just a little slower than the rest..
but i had a nightmare..
i failed the paper again.. *touch wood*
sigh~

31 jan

2006-02-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

drove to my uncle's home on 31 Jan..
quite okie..
without daddy..
more relax..
drove much more better than when he was beside me..
i am not such a bad driver right?
dont know..
but i mount kerb for the first time in half year..
haha..
hope tat it would be last..
parking is okie..
guess i still need practise to be perfect..
haha

Chinese New Year

2006-01-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

Chinese new year was yet again in Malaysia..
went to a beach resort this year..
the rooms are quite nice..
the place quite cooling...
as usual..
it was just sitting in front of the tv and eating the chinese new year goodies..
reunion dinner was a little different this year..
so sitting at a round table..
it was a buffet style..
not bad i guess.
especially so since we are not at an resturant but at the place we stay..
more pple joined us for CNY this year..
my niece..
and my newborn cousin..
all things shld be fun..
and nice..
except the part abt driving...
sigh..
dont feel like driving anymore...

25 Jan

2006-01-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

whee wen came to visit us in hall..
haha..
went to eat sushi!!
my favourite..
i was sick though...
haha..
but i dont mind eating the sushi..
had a little asthma attack..so to say...
in the middle on the night..
sigh..
stuck on medicine till CNY....

23 JAN

2006-01-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

Drove my family car yesterday..
not much of a nightmare now..
now i am driving a bit faster...
was suppose to go at 80 since i am not use to the car..
think i exceeded it till my father kinda like scolded me..
coz i did not check the meter..
is it really true that men are very MCP when it comes to driving and directions?
i dont know..
but i am very sure at least for my father and tat tester..
they are EXTREMELY mcp abt it..
I really can't wait for the day tat i can drive with my father beside me..
MINUS the scolding of course...
then i must be a good driver already...
haha

auto car driving

2006-01-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

Drove my family car yesterday..
with my father beside me..
and it suck!!
i cant get the car to go fast...
and my father keep scolding me..
angry!
so wat if u are a good driver...
hey i just passed not long ago...
and i am not use to the car...
wat do u expect...
sigh..
dont like to get scolded...
i knew this was coming..
getting scolded..
i was kinda reluctant to drive with him ard..
sigh...
i dont dare to drive anymore...
bleah~

guess wat!!!

2006-01-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

GUESS WAT!!!!
i passed my driving test...
want to thank the tester who passed me though he keep scolding me,
making me so nervous...
want to thank my instructor who taught me..
want to thank everyone who wishes me good luck for my test..
it really work!
want to thank God who answered to my plead...
i also want to thank mummy who sponsored half of my driving lesson
or else i would die poor..
haha..
thank you sooo much..
though it is the second time before i pass..
i know i have to practise to brush up my skills!!

hmm

2006-01-16T01:53:00.000+08:00

Today i realise..
yet again..
the so call friend...
the so call closer friend in sch didnt tell me things..
wat does this mean...
dont know..
dont want to know anymore...

nice weather

2006-01-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

weather is almost clearing up...
raining less often as compared to sunday..
i like this kind of temperature..
cooling..
and nice...
but sometimes this weather make me depress easily..
good weather to be depress..
haha

raining

2006-01-08T14:47:00.000+08:00

It was raining..
it is still raining..
driving was not tat scary before this..
haha..
and this is the first time i knocked the poles down..
gosh..
it better be the last..
it is really time to practise in the circuit..
afraid tat i would get mount kerb..
*touch wood*
haha...
i will not mount..
test is coming..
so scary..
haha..
i hope it would not rain on that day..
it will be difficult to see...
haha..

some tots.

2006-01-07T14:20:00.000+08:00

I want to be in a place..
where i can cry whenever i want to...
home is not a place when pple are ard..
my family will ask why..
i dont want to tell them..
i dont think is necessary for them to know...
(HEY u out there who thinks i am wrong... THIS IS MY PROBLEM K..SHUT UP)
i want to cry out loud..
for the whole day..
maybe then i will feel better..
crying is a norm since i am in JC..
but never had i cry till i felt better..
isnt crying suppose to make u feel better...
beside tat..
i would also want someone to be there to hug me when i cry..
they dont have to say anything to comfort me..
just be there for me..
just comfort me through their hugs..
dont ask me not to cry...
i want to cry...
is there a place out there where pple accept me as who i am...
NO!
there will never be....
not a single one of u out there can accept me as who i am..
think abt it..
are u sure u can accept the real me..
do u think u are looking at the real me now?
i dont even know where is the real me..
how would u know..

I WONDER

2006-01-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

I wonder whether would there be a way..
that i can feel happy for most of the days..
where i can feel sad for some of the days..
but not the other way round..
hmm..
am i suffering from depression..
if so it will be chronic depression..
coz this has like been for at least two years..
but then..
it may just be the situation tat i have tat makes me upset..
hmm..
i dont know..
better revise my work abt depression and check..
but the thing is..
i dont really know whether it is depression a not..
coz i wont know abt the symptoms clearly..
sigh..
if i am suffering from it..
i know there wont be anyone out there that can help me..
and there will be one out there making it worst..
well..
u just have to depend on urself right..
sigh

sad

2006-01-06T09:23:00.000+08:00

i am sad i couldnt get the spacing in astro..
i really wanted tat course...
OH WELL...
we will just have to wait till next time..
sad.. coz becoz of this i missed the lect of my second choice..
i am so pathetic..
first day of school has been fine..
just tat microecons shocked me..
first lect was all maths i was like... did i print the wrong things..
haha..
pathetic girl...
u pathetic girl...
pathetic...

A brand new year~

2006-01-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

Yea~
is a brand new year and sch is starting..
shld i be happy or sad?
i wanna study hard so tat i can maintain my results..
if possible..
even better..
gosh i sound like a big nerd..
but seriously..
i dont care..
***********************************
watched 'The Family Stone' on new year's day..
midnight~~
hee..
i think is my first midnight show..
it was a comedy i guess..
but there was a part where i cried...
i cried when the female lead felt wronged..
even by the one she loved..
where the whole family looked as her like she was totally bad...
when she didnt do anything wrong..
beside the scene where she shld hvae kept her mouth shut..
yaa..
poor her..
when she said" isn't there anyone out there who loves me?"
sigh~
why did i cry..
coz sometimes i feel like i am that girl..
who does not felt understood by anyone..
sigh

sigh

2005-12-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

sigh~
was thinking abt it..
and i realise tat there will be ard 9 months left or even lesser
before our meeting would be a "once a year" thingy...
sigh~
i just cannot imagine tat day...
that four years..
how would it be like?
thinking abt it makes me wanna tie u up and not go...
but u have to..
coz is all for ur own good..
sigh~

my JC clique~

2005-12-26T13:58:00.000+08:00

These are the girls that i am always with during my JC life~~
they are interesting..
lovely..
friendly~..
pretty~
and many many more..
photos courtesy by Eliza~~~
the pretty princess in green~~
haha
love u girls~~~
friends forever~~~

MERRY XMAS~

2005-12-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!~
haha.. met up with Hong Ling, Eliza, Yan Xia and Hui Zhuang yesterday...
really had fun with them...
they are still them as ever...
but we changed a lot i must say..
if not check out Yan Xia's blog for our Pix..
as compared to the one i put up..
haha

we have all become pretty~~~
merry xmas my friends..
friends forever always and nothing can change tat ok??

results

2005-12-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

results are out....
hmm...
i dont know shld i be happy a not..
is good as compared to normal standard...
but a little poor from my aim for the end of uni life..
oh well..
try harder..
study harder..
and hope everything will be good...

my 100th post

2005-12-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

yeaH~!!!
this is my 100th post...
finally after sooooo long..
haha
played softball today..
lost but it was a good match..
though i feel stress le..
haha...
abit scare...
shhh!!!
dont tell anyone..
me sunburn....
nice red...
kinda like the colour..
but it is not even!!
SIGH~~
tired now...
and a little hungry..
friday is finally here!!!
so exciting!!

back

2005-12-12T03:05:00.000+08:00

back from Malaysia..
was there for my cousin's chinese wedding dinner~~
was nice see all my cousins again~~
hee..
it is only at big ocassions where we can see them...
i always like to see them..
though i dont really talk to them..
it is really like in a big family..
i like big family~~
cant wait to see them again during new year~~
hee....

hmm

2005-12-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

his* is going for Australia today for a holiday...
will be back on the 16th...
but i wont be free on the 17th...
coz i have caroling~~~
haha...
lala
i am going crazy...
haha

another thought

2005-12-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

sometimes..
when u gave up something..
thinking it was the right thing to do..
u may have to think again...
wat u gave up..
may just be a mistake...
made a lot of mistakes...
sigh..
especially so in the choice of my modules last sem...
now trying my best to find a solution...
sigh...

outing with Rohani~

2005-12-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

went out with Rohani girl~
as usual it was fun~~
haha...
shopped for xmas presents for my family...
once a year can i spend money like tat..
so why not..
haha..
though we dont celebrate christmas..
we give each other present..
waha
anyway~~
outing with her was nice..
walked the whold of orchard..
and then we walked from orchard to city hall..
honestly..
i am not cut out for shopping..
i am tired now..
here pain..
there pain...
gosh~~
am i a girl?
but who say girls must love shopping...
bad stereotype..
wahaha...
ok..
i am tired and talking nonsense~~~~
shall go watch TV....

alone

2005-12-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

have u ever felt so alone...
even if u have ur friends and family ard you...
even if with the one u loved?
have u ever feel like just leaving everything behind and just disappear?
have u ever had the feeling of crying without knowing why?
have u ever thought of whether u really suppose to be existing on Earth..
even when being born it means u are supposed to?
have u ever not felt love and tat everyone seem to be so fake ard u?
i just everyone has these feelings before...
and hence it doesnt really matter whether u have it a not...
it only means u are feeling empty inside...
so empty u do not know wat to do...
so empty tat u feel tat u are not u...
so empty tat u dont even think u exist....

congratulation

2005-12-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

congratulation to my cousin who got married today!!
though chinese wedding dinner is next sat!!
haha
congrats!!!!!!!

cast workshop

2005-12-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

went for the cast workshop these past three days...
there are more committee members than casts...
haha....
and today every one time there is only four...
is this a success?
i dont know..
but i can say the workshop is fun..
in the sense that i do not feel tat time has passed..
and by the time u know it..
it is 5 plus...
haha...
learnt quite a lot of things...
i wonder would rehearsal be like tat?
few people present..
haha

Do you have...

2005-12-01T10:02:00.000+08:00

Do you have the feeling tat you actually thought tat u are better than the rest..
only to find out that everyone out there think so abt themselves too..
and in the end u are all the same...
Did you have the thought that you are unique...
only to find out the uniqueness that you have is actually one of the ordinary?
Do you ever have the thoughts tat everyone out there is looking at you...
only to realise it is just your own thinking?
if tat is so...
i guess we have begin to leave the stage of adolescence...
going into adulthood....
knowing the fact like everyone out there,you are jsut like tat...
and since everyone is special in their own way...
no one is special after all.. if u know wat i mean..
wat is so special when everyone is special?
wat will you do when u realised that you are not tat special after all?
would try your best to be special or would u just forget it and be ordinary?
just a random thought...

huh~~

2005-11-28T16:03:00.000+08:00

HUH???
my previous entry happily disappeared
this was wat i wrote:Exam is finally over...
i have two more things tat i have yet to settle..
JLPT 4 on Dec 4 and Driving test on 17 Jan...
haha..
hope i can clear both of them...
not tat afraid for JLPT 4..
but u know..
just in case....
i wonder when can we have our result soon....
when can we register our modules...
no~~~
dont get the wrong idea..
i wont do well..and i dont feel like going back to sch so soon...
but i am just wondering u see..
haa..
i think i am crazy...
feeling weird tat i am not studying...
hmm..
haha..
oh well...
i will feel sad next sem tat i have to start studying...
haha
*****************************************************************************
have been reading the newspaper...
and one particular article got me attention....
actually is not one..
is a lot...
abt the same thing..
but i dont see the topic being mentioned recently..
no matter wat..
the decision better stay....
ya...
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5th and 6th

2005-11-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

exam will be over sooN!
finally!
have been waiting for this day to come.....
for a long time..
so much so i dont feel like studying for tml papers now..
haha..
lazy me...
more of tired me....
haa

4th paper tml

2005-11-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

sigh~~~~
4th paper but there will be two more to go..
shld i be happy or sad...
haha..
hall to me is basically empty..
everyone has gone home..
there only me and beatrice left...
haha...
yesterday night was the first night for the whole exam period..
tat i can sleep peaceful in hall...
haha...
i wonder whether was it the stress or noise tat i cant sleep peaceful..
beats me~~
haha..
i shall continue on me mugging spree~

3rd paper tml

2005-11-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

I will be having my third paper tml..
feeling very tired now..
haha..
shld i sleep?
maybe i shld..
how i wish exams will end soon...
wishing...
but i know i still have till 25th Nov...
4 more papers to go...
i can do it de!!
mean while i think i shld relax....
tired le
wahaha

it is wed 9 nov

2005-11-09T09:24:00.000+08:00

wahaha~
i am blogging yet again....
yesterday Jap paper was quite a good start...
questions were quite managable and easier than i expected..
except one or two though..
haha..
tat is to sort the cream from the crop i guess..
and apparently i am not the crop or else i would have say
"the paper is VERY easy"
wahaha
going to have my second paper this afternoon...
i am kinda afraid..
coz i am not really prepared..
going to do past sem papers now...
haha..
wish me lucK~

studying

2005-10-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

was studying...
taking a break right now...
haha..
learnt a lot abt personality..
and now i am in personality disorder..
second chapter only..
but is okie~
i believe i can study finish before my exams..
i will MAKE sure..
coz i cant stand the tot of not finishing studying and sitting
for the paper..
haha..
unless..
of course i have no choice..~~
back to my studies~~
*waves*

珊瑚海

2005-10-30T17:00:00.000+08:00

歌手：周杰伦/lara 专辑：十一月的萧邦

词:方文山曲:周杰伦
男:海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈
女:你用唇语说你要离开
男:心不在
男女:那难过无声慢了下来
男女:汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海
男:转身离开分手说不出来女:你有话说不出来
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害女:等待竟累积成伤害
男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白

男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白女:你有我的不够成熟坦白
女:不应该
男女:热情不再笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海

男:毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀
女:贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男:等花儿开
男女:我们也已经无心再猜

女男:脸上海风咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来
男:转身离开分手说不出来女:你有话说不出来
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害女:等待竟累积成伤害
男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白女:你有我的不够成熟坦白
女:不应该
男:热情不在笑容勉强不来女:你的笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海

(dont think is very accurate though)

dont know

2005-10-30T14:17:00.000+08:00

i do not know what has gotten in to me...
i feel very piss and angry and hurt...
but to think about it..
it seems like tat is a very small matter...
why the big reaction?
i guess i am at my max...
i guess i was really stress and angry just tat i suppress it..
and now it cannot hold anymore...
sorry..
sorry to whoever is involve...
be it my neighbours who hear me screaming away on a Sunday..
or anyone out there...
sorry...
i guess i was at my max and i needed to get off...

我排在你心中的哪里呢？

2005-10-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

(this post is for no specific person in particular)

我排在你心中的哪里呢？
可能是自己太自大了吧。。。。
不然为何我会问这颗问题呢？
不知道。。。
想了想。。。
好像无论在哪个人的心中我一定不是在第一名吧。。。。
很贪心是吗。。。。
能在前五名已偷笑了。。。。
还要当第一。。。。
是吧。。。。
可能是因为我以为自己是在一些人的心中不是第一就是第二。。。
但是发现到这完全是错的时候才会感到难过吧。。。。
对不起。。。
我太自我为中心了吧。。。
但是。。。
我到底排在你心中的哪里呢？
我好想知道。。。

hmmm

2005-10-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

Love can actually be so fragile...
especially so when two are not always together....
would u go all out for the one u like even though she/he is attached?
would u be happy that u broke the couple up and get wat u want?
would u be happy to see someone else hurt?
just because u can get wat u want?
shld i depise u for doing such a thing?
shld i hate u for doing such a thing?
shld i curse u for doing such a thing?
i do not know..
all i know is tat u are wrong to hurt the other party just because u feel
tat it is only right to go all out for wat u want...
is that a game to u?
will u cherish her/him as much as her/his other half do?
i do not know..
i am not in the position to say anything....

sunday

2005-10-17T13:34:00.000+08:00

Sunday was a raining day!!!
the rain is so heavy that it flooded my area...
haha...
and because of this flooding..
i decided to walk another route to prevent myt feet from being submerge...
and it is also because of that...
tat i fell into the drain and hurt myself...
sigh~~
how clumsy can i be?
went to the control station to get some plaster..
this nice officer gave me a plaster and help me bandage my wound..
asking me to take some more just in case it fell off..
thank you very much!!
and because of this accident i was late for my project..
so sorry girls..
It was the first time tat i had actually done my project in cafe cartel...
haha...
thanks for not chasing us out when we sat there from 3.30pm to 6.30pm...
though we bought some food....
but i dont think there are anybody who acutally go there and study or even
do project.....
i wonder beside the one we went to is it alright in either places?
maybe they shld venture into allowing people to study in non peak period...
this can actually let them have another source of revenue...
rather then wasting the resources of electricity...
haha..
talking nonsense...
but not all resturants can do tat though...
only certain kind that is not so posh or threatening in looks tat will attract pple
to study there....
for example who would feel right to study in crsytal jade?
haha...
dont know..
talking nonsense...
i want to open a potato resturant!!!
hshs...
lalala
i am crazy...
It may be the wounds tat are driving me to insanity...
haha

next driving test

2005-10-14T16:15:00.000+08:00

Next driving test: 17 Jan 2006.. 1.55 pm...
hope tat i can pass it...
no high hopes le..
haha..
it is time to concentrate on my exams le.. 3 weeks left and i dont feel it...
tsk tsk..
tat is bad..
taking the first step by printing past year paper..
hoping that it will work for me..
i will study hard..
gp is coming also..
sigh...
i am so slack...
i will study!!!!!!!
start of next week i will study....
haha....
please ask me to study...
haa

I FAILED DRIVING TEST and more....

2005-10-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

I failed driving test!!
kinda expected it...
but still sad...
duh~
who wont be sad if u fail something...
but aftering failing gp..which kinda like a major test,
failing other minor things dont seem tat saddening anymore..
haha....
went arcade on sunday and won an i pod shuffles...
haha..
lucky me..~
will life is fair..
i win an i-pod shuffles i failed my driving test..
haha...
went arcade at jp today...
i am telling u..
the lady in the arcade has a very very bad attitude...
u dont scream at ur customer even though he is younger...
u dont push the blame on him....
hello!!!!!
maybe there is some fault in his part...
the irritating part..
u keep on pushing the blame to him..
just to keep ur own ass in front of ur boss...
*tsk* *tsk*
i am not going there at least for this year..
who knows..
i may forget abt it next time....
then step in...
i am angry abt the fact she embarass him in front of so many pple...
now right...
even if u are is mother u have no right...
keeping quiet does not mean tat he accept watever u say u ku ku head....
rest assure tat u will be hated for life by me at least...
i just HATE adults who treat the younger customers badly...
u ought to realise tat those young game addicts are UR customers....

friday

2005-10-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

had driving today....
haha
didnt stall...
test on tues...
argh!!
just had econs quiz...
very sad..
wont be doing well..
sigh~~~~~~~~

corpse bride~

2005-10-02T15:57:00.000+08:00

Watched corpse bride yesterday night...
haha..
nice show!
i like it!
i like the songs they sing too..
especially by the corpse bride "tears to shed"
it is so sad...
i want to buy the sound track!!!
yuppy~~
http://corpsebridemovie.warnerbros.com/#
found this website abt this show..
http://www.warnerbrosrecords.com/corpsebride/
this is the one with the songs~~
hee..
i guess i really like it!!
haha

Lyrics from korean song...

2005-09-29T11:47:00.000+08:00

Kiss - because im a girl

i just cant understand the hearts of men

they tell you they want you and then they leave you

this is the first time, you're special

i believed those words and i was so happy

chorus :

// you should have told me you didn't like me any more

but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me

although i will curse you i'll still miss you

since i am a girl, to whom love is everything //

i heard that if you give up things too easily

to a man, he will get bored with you

i don't think this is wrong

a girl says that she will never be fooled again

but she will fall in love again

// chorus //

narration :

we separated today

you said you wanted me to be happy

and find a better person than you

you're just like every other man

didn't you tell me you loved me?

actually, i don't want you to be happy

what if you find a girl who's prettier than me

and live happily with her?

what if it makes you forget me

when im hurting so much, so much i want to die

when i still love you so much...

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness

to do anything for love

and her caring instinct

i didn't know that to be born as a girl

and to be loved was so hard

although i will curse you i'll still miss you

since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

although i will curse you i'll still miss you

since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

Sat movie...

2005-09-25T14:08:00.000+08:00

watched "Red Shoes" yesterday~~
scary... more of being gross..
haha..
but nice show~~
it has been a long time since i watched a scary movie le..
was disappointing for the few i watched before this
that i told myself that i dont want to watch le..
haha..
was telling him* hope tat we wont waste the money..
and wala!
i didnt feel that i missed it..
was very irritable yesterday..
i wonder wat happened..
hm...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hm..
wat is my goal for Uni?
wat do i want to get out of this..
hm..
i want to get be a first-class honor student...
i want to get a master in psychology..
but can i get it?
an average of a B+ will be needed for each module right from year 1 if i am not wrong
wat in the world am i doing now??
not studying..
slacking..
argh!
sigh~
average GPA of 4?
haha..
i can dream...

18 sept

2005-09-18T15:44:00.000+08:00

Blah~
today is the day where my Aunt is getting married..
not excited..
coz she doesnt seem interested in inviting to her dinner either..
it suddenly dawn upon me...
it is my AUNT wedding..
why am i only attending the dinner...
arent we suppose to be there for tea or something?
blah~
had a family bbq at downtown east yesterday..
conclusion:
i kinda like family bbq..
coz the food is better..
haha..
and it seem easier to set the fire...
the chicken wings are good..
haha
the corn is sweet...
or maybe it is just something new tat i
have never try in Singapore..
a rare time where my relatives come to singapore..
so i guess i have to thank this Aunt of mine..
in my cousin's hse now...
it is real cosy...
u wont really want to step out the whole day...
haha..
shall go and study before i go for the dinner...

education

2005-09-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

Why is there some people who can actually think having an education is not impt now?
I really dont really understand...
he can actually claim that there are people who didnt study but are rich...
the problem...
he doesnt see the process...
it is so difficult to knock sense into such people..
seriously wat can u do with just a pri sch cert at this century...
time is different from the past...
people are looking into ur qualification...
whether u want it a not..
whether it is right or wrong...
reality...
Some people are lucky that they can make it without this qualification..
ok..
maybe not lucky...
but are good and talented..
but not everyone is like tat...
do u actually think that you are as smart as them?
talented as them?
lucky as them?
oh gosh!!
wake up!!!
everyone is trying to wake u up and u choose to remain dormant..
there are people ard us who have already realised the impt of paper qualification..
cant u just learnt from them...
even those who have not realised them...
can u just see??
they are right in front of u..
sigh~~
if only there are some ways that we can let u realise before u regret...

test~quiz~sian~

2005-09-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

Jap test is today~~
but i cant study...
nope.. not because of distraction...
but i just cannot study..
so sian!!!
haha
sigh~~
feel like walking ard..
holding my book and study..
sian sian....
i feel the stress liao..
deadline of projects....
sian sian....

Tues day night

2005-09-07T09:33:00.000+08:00

haha..
guess wat i did?
i actually went for audition for hall production..
haha..
i must be nuts..
i cant act i cant sing..
and yes i made a fool out of myself...
oh well...
at least i tried...
also went for the interviews for publicity and publication sub comm and music sub comm...
kinda interested in getting to music though...
coz if i do..
i will be able to play the flute..
hee
oh well...
we shall see ba...
but no regrets since i went for the them...
haha..

my tots

2005-09-06T11:14:00.000+08:00

LOVE is so to say abt self-scarifice...
dont ever give this meaning to your love ones
if u urself cannot fulfill it..
at least this is wat i think...
dont think too much...
and then make urself unhappy...
at which u take it out on ur love one..
then make both of u all unhappy...
trust them would u...
not only are u stress...
so are they...
and you dont have to add on to that do u know tat..
if ur defination of love is abt self-scarifice..
and u are actually inflicting ur unhappiness on them...
wat self-scarifice..
that is selfish...
if u want them to change for u...
wat self-scarifice..
another selfish act...
sigh...
i know..
if u love that person..
u have to change for them..
not whining abt them controlling u..
that is also not self-scarifice...
one ask u too because they felt tat u really have to change...
one break down because u are giving them to much pressure...
cant u all just compromise and help one another..
instead of making each other feel unhappy...
it take both hands to clap...
pls..
dont torture one another like tat...

mentally broken down

2005-09-06T11:06:00.000+08:00

Can i hate my life??
please??
i feel mentally tortured...
everything doesnt seem to be going the right way...
i am just an unlucky idiotic girl...
sigh~

1503 outing

2005-09-05T01:08:00.000+08:00

1503 outing at Marina South...
total strength: 20 including Mr Tan...
haha..
all the girls (except me) have become prettier le...
the guys ar....
er...haha...
still the same lor...
nice to see them again though....
but i have not seen Serene for a LONG time!!
half a year at least...
girl...where did u go....
food was fine...
but poor me and yvonne was splattered by oil cum water...
thank goodness it didnt leave any scar...
i dont want anymore scars...
haha..
hamster died today...
kinda expected it though..
coz he has been stoning for a long time
whenever i see him....
he can actually stone or fell asleep when he was drinking water..
and he is not as active as before....
so..
all this are signs...
so ya....
lala...
today is kinda moody...
gloomy day....
dont ask...
i dont know...
and even if i do..
i wont really tell...

free access lab

2005-09-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

haha..
in free access lab now...
doing nothing...
actually waiting for lesson to start...
had driving today...
dont really like driving when it is raining..
cannot see properly..
i finally know wat it means by kerb-to-shoulder
for U-turn~!!
haha....

31 Aug

2005-08-31T22:40:00.000+08:00

at 2 am in the morning..
guess were was i??
was in Beatrice's room....
singing...
it was sooooo fun...
haven really sing like tat with no worries...
they just gave me a comfortable feeling i guess...
dont really like singing K box as...
i feel paiseh....
haha
i dont know wat is wrong with me seriously...
but jas been a long time since i feel so light hearted..
if that is the word..
it was fun...
really!
can we do it again girls?

some of block 15 girls

2005-08-31T10:33:00.000+08:00

being upset

2005-08-30T14:45:00.000+08:00

Being upset is something many people will experience....
this emotion is always with u whether u like it a not...
wat is the worst thing being upset?
let me guess...
no one understands you...
you have to hide the feelings...
you are being regarded as a self centred cow...
thinking nothing but your ownself...
yes i am whining...
risking the fact that someone may read it and scold me abt it...
and worst sever all ties with me....
i cant help thinking the meanest people on earth
are those who make use of the relationship.....
感情是那么的不重要吗？
不珍贵的感情就是那么容易地催毁的吧。。。。
是这样的吧。。。。